OGECHI AND I # EPISODE 40#

Ogechi and I EPISODE: 40
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While I was still drowning in self-pity, Cynthia walked into my
room and met me shedding tears. I heard footsteps and turned,
only to see her in another nightie standing behind me
remorsefully. I wiped my tears immediately in order not to
show any weakness. She came and sat close to me, and
apologized for her words and actions. She felt so sorry for
making me shed tears like a child. Her words of apology
touched me, and my eyes gave way to the tears it couldn’t
afford to hold anymore. This time I sobbed and eventually cried
out loud, as I had gotten so emotional and couldn’t hold myself
anymore. Cynthia also got emotional and began shedding tears
as well. It became like a sobbing competition. She tried to
console me, taking my head and laying it on her laps in the
process. I wasn’t crying because of Cynthia’s words of apology
per say, but for the loss of Ogechi’s love and Cynthia’s thrust
which took me years to build. We retired to bed in my room
that night in the same emotional state, holding unto each other
to comfort ourselves in our warms. That was the last real
warm I was going to have in a long while, so I went for it big
time.
The morning finally came after what seemed like an endless
night in Eden, and I arose to prepare to take my leave as Lady
Cynthia had ordered. I had already taken my bath and was
packing my stuff when Cynthia awoke to see me doing so.
“What are you doing J?”
“I’m preparing to leave” I replied.
“J, I’m really very sorry for having asked you to leave. Believe
me, I didn’t mean that. I was just angry, that’s all. Please quit
the packing and do your normal thing. You don’t have to go. I
don’t want you to go.”
“Don’t worry about it Cynthia. I’ve made up my mind to leave.
Come to think of it, it’s better I leave. I mean, that way we get
to avoid more problems.”
“What problems are you talking about?”
“You never can tell what may come up at a later time if I don’t
make this move now. And I wouldn’t want to wait and find
out.”
“Look J, I know it hit you hard when I asked you to leave. But
please don’t let your ego get the better part of you. Even if I
meant what I said, I have changed my mind now. Isn’t that
enough to calm you down? Okay, let me put it this way; J,
please don’t leave. I really need you to stay in this house with
me. And if you really want to leave, let it be after you’ve
completed your Masters’ Degree Program. At least, then I would
know I’ve finished what I started. Don’t deny me that chance, I
beg of you.”
“You’ve done a lot already for me. Nothing I do now or later
can change that fact. I understand that you want to finish what
you started, but my mind is made up already. I owe you the
world Cynthia, and I hope that one day I’ll be well positioned to
repay all your kindness to me.”
“Is that how desperate are to go for her?” Cynthia asked with a
relaxed tone of voice.
“Cynthia, don’t start.”
“Why?” Isn’t that the only logical reasonable explanation to
this sudden strong will to leave? You’re going to Oklahoma for
Ogechi aren’t you? Have you stopped for a moment to think
about what her life has been like these past years that you’ve
been apart? If I may ask, where was she when you needed the
support of your life? I’m not disputing the fact that you love
her, but love is more of a practical thing than mere feelings
and words. From what I’ve gathered, she had become a star
singer in America while you were still in that radio house trying
to get known at that local level. I don’t mean to run her down
with my words, but you’ll certainly see reasons with me if you
don’t let emotions becloud your reasoning.”
“That’s enough Cynthia. You lie there painting an evil picture
of Ogechi, little do you know that you are alive today as a
result of her sacrifice. She could have chosen to let you die and
continue her relationship with me. Instead she chose to
sacrifice our love for your life.”
“What are you talking about J? What sacrifice for my life?”
“Listen Cynthia, while you were in coma, I and Ogechi fasted
for seven days to ensure your recovery. In the process she had
what I would term a “revelation” that had it that she must quit
her relationship with me in order for you awake from that
coma. Or she could choose to cling to me and let you die.
Guess what she did; she quit! That act brought you back to
life. You should be grateful to her for what she did, but you lie
here slaying her with ill words.”
“Stop it J! Stop it! Wait a minute; I do not really understand all
you’re saying. You mean you guys fasted for my recovery?
Well, thanks for that. But Ogechi quit things with you for me to
awake from a coma? Please come again. What sort of a theory
is that?”
“Yeah, she did. It’s no theory. It’s more of a spiritual thing.
And before you start doubting it, just know that you awoke
from that coma the moment that instruction which you refer to
as a theory was implemented. I and Ogechi had to be no more
for you to live. Now you’re alive, but only at the expense I and
Ogechi’s true and undeniable love for each other. The least you
can do now is appreciate her. “
“C’mon J, why didn’t anyone tell me about this?”
“Did you care to listen to anyone? Weren’t you barking at her
like dog back at the hospital? And when I tried to talk to you,
you asked me to leave your house. Well that’s fine because I’m
leaving. Just know that Ogechi made a brave decision to
prevent your death. As for me, well, you can see me as
Beelzebub, I won’t bother much. After all, it’s my fault all these
ever happened. I should have told you about her long ago.”
“J I’m sorrrrrrrrrrry” Cynthia apologized with tears. “I never
knew she did that for me. My grudge against her didn’t let me
see anything good about her. Please forgive me.”
“I’m not the one you should apologize to. Ogechi is.”
“I will do so to her as soon as possible. In fact, I’m going to
Oklahoma to see her and sort things out with her. She’s my
sister for Christ’s sake, and we even have unfinished business.
And that includes you doing a song with her. J, I would like
you to accompany me to Oklahoma to see her and do the
needful. Please come with me.”
“Don’t include me in whatever you plan to do henceforth
Cynthia. I am no longer interested. The only reason I would
want to see Ogechi is to play love with her. But now that we
can no longer do that, I don’t see the need. That would be like
feeding a hungry man with the aroma of his best meal.”
“Are you really this mad at me? You won’t even oblige to a
thing I say anymore. What ever happened to the role of
forgiveness? Cynthia plead.
“I hold no grudge against you Cynthia. The truth is that my
world has fallen apart, and I need to find a way to rebuild it
instead of whiling away precious time chasing ghosts. Ogechi
was my world, and without her in my life, nothing can ever
remain the same again.”
“I can’t say I understand how you feel right now, but I certainly
can relate to your suffering. From what I’ve heard you say
about Ogechi, it is obvious enough you really love her. And
losing her will have such a major impact on you that will
destabilize your inner being for a long period of time if not
forever. As bizarre as this may sound to you, I will have to go
through the same if I lose you. And the knowledge that my
unconditional love for you went unreciprocated worsens the
whole matter for me. J, I don’t mean to be selfish here, but I
think we can do something to save ourselves too much hurt. I
still love you J, very much. Even if you set me on fire, I will
still love you. Forget all I have said or done to you recently. It
was just a natural reaction. Instead of going our separate ways
to continue with our suffering, we can stick to each other and
make a better life for ourselves. I’m a woman J, and would
never come between the union of a fellow woman to her man.
But the situation here is different. You and Ogechi cannot be
together anymore, and I love you so much that I cannot let you
go. I would have, if this thing between you and Ogechi didn’t
come into play. But now that it unfortunately has, we can come
together and work something out to avoid unnecessary
emotional trauma. I know you don’t love me as much as you
love Ogechi, and neither will you ever find a woman to love that
much. But think of this; I love you and you know it. Isn’t it
better to stick to the woman who loves you with her life?”
“Cynthia, I know you love me. But you don’t expect me to jump
on you like that just because I can no longer have my dear
Ogechi. C’mon, how would my baby girl even look at me? Like
I’m such a cheap guy who couldn’t even mourn the death of our
love for long before jumping into another woman’s arms? Not
in this world!”
“J, let me suggest something that will make this whole process
easier. How about you and I visit Ogechi at Oklahoma to tell
her all about this and get her consent to go ahead? I know she
wants you happy. And you can only find happiness in a woman
that truly loves you. If Ogechi sees me to be that woman, then
we can go ahead. If she doesn’t, then I guess it is goodbye
forever.”
“Are you even considering my stand on this? I asked. Or are
you just suggesting what is good for you? What makes you
think that you and I getting together is Ogechi’s decision to
make? What about me? Can’t I choose whether or not I want to
be in a relationship with you?
“I know you love me J. That is undeniable. You only love
Ogechi more. If I let you decide, your ego will becloud you
reasoning. That’s why I’m coming all out to ensure that another
loss isn’t recorded. The only woman I would let you go for is
Ogechi. But an unfortunate incident has rigged things to my
favor, and I will not sit back and watch you vanish into thin air
except you deliberately choose to punish me for my ill words
and deeds to you. Ask for Ogechi, I know she wouldn’t deny me
this favor. If she could sacrifice her love for my life, what will
she not do to make sure that her once true love finds love
again? It’s left for you J. But whatever you do, never forget
that Cynthia loves you, and will always love you. I am going to
Oklahoma, with or without you. And I will tell Ogechi all I’ve
told you. If she consents to my proposal, I will come looking
for you wherever you may choose to go until I find you. That’s
how much I love you.”
“I wouldn’t advise you to go through that. If I wanted to stay, I
would have stayed without you having to do all that. And that
doesn’t mean I don’t love you. But you see, the loss of Ogechi
will never permit me to concentrate on anything else in a hurry,
not to mention another emotional attachment. It is of a fact
that I and Ogechi can’t be together again, granting you and me
the access to do whatever, but it just can’t happen like that. If
we were meant to be together under circumstances as these,
then it will surely be. No need to hurry it.”
“So you’re really leaving J?” Cynthia asked crying.
“My mind is made up” I replied and concluded parking my
stuff. I then made to leave and Cynthia tried to stop me by
holding me back with much tears. I wasn’t moved by her tears
at all. I continued on my way till I reached my car, which
Cynthia bought for me. I put my stuff in the boot and then
hopped into the driver’s seat. I kick started the engine, and off
I went. I watched Cynthia through the side mirror of the car as
she wept profusely. It was then her tears moved me and I shed
tears too inside the car. But I couldn’t turn back. I was already
on my way. I guess it was never meant to be. GOODBYE
CYNTHIA.
Three months passed and I was done with my Masters’ Degree
Program. During those three months, I hadn’t communicated
with Ogechi or Cynthia. I had plans of meeting Ogechi at least
once before bidding her an eternal farewell. But I didn’t think
there was need for that anymore, so I planned to go back to
Nigeria to see what I could do for myself with my Masters’
Degree. Just four days to my departure, a call came in and I
grabbed my phone to see who was calling. Low and behold, it
was Ogechi.

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